Butterflies and Bullies

I sleep wide awake between

butterflies and bullies

counting sheep morphed into tribes.

With the new social of antisocial

agree is God and truth is the devil

when it survives the river of lies.

Mining hope from empty, finding

beauty in bare, I fly what could be

instead of a sky polluted with dead air.

In the If Not Now Then When,

The Gray of Blind, even a flicker of peace

can feed a spirit who faces another mountain to climb.

©Susie Clevenger 2019

Real Toads ~ What is Metamodernism

Nigrum Somnium Dicat

I use a spoonful of light to feed my darkness,

bits of glitter to bedazzle dread.

In the hollow of abandoned I place my ribs,

drink dust of tears, spin fantasies in my head.

Fear has a scent my nose can detect,

cloying ammonia, musty stench of deflect.

Like it or not I know what you fear.

I’m the whisper sting stalking your ear.

Lilies bloom in shallow breath,

graying skin, cackling death.

The candle wick will make shadows larger,

conjure secrets, burn lies through your armor.

I’m the nightmare ruling your dreams,

burning your peace, courting your screams.

©Susie Clevenger 2019

It is October so my mythical twist is pure Halloween.

Weekend Mini-Challenge ~ Mythical

Reconstruction

The Architect by Erik Johansson

I draw myself inside out,

the living me uncovered,

uncensored, rooms full of gems

and rotten fruit.

Vulnerable tastes like cheap wine,

the kind that gives indigestion,

a false bravado too drunk

to weigh consequences.

I am of wild dreams, foul words,

heart bleed, civil war between

night monsters and forgiveness,

and a mind that sleeps but never rests.

This blood letting of black ink collects

on white pages, spills around my feet

in an origami hell of crushing frustration.

I don’t know where I will stand after demolition,

when buzzards circle to pluck truth into rumor.

Freedom will leave scars, friends will try to rebirth me

to fit into their acceptance and enemies will gold eye glee.

I am done carrying weight, reorganizing my crazy,

dancing to the tune of suggestions I get over

what I am working through… I am doing all I can

to stand up while falling.

 ©Susie Clevenger 2019

Dedicated to those who struggle with depression.

The Sunday Muse #78